One of my biggest struggles (besides my lack of any natural sport ability!) is the mental fight. I’m not sure whether it’s an actual issue or I’m just a lazy type, but the thought of trying to do something is usually very draining for me. Once I force myself to get up and get going, whether it’s cleaning, eating a healthy meal, going out for a hike, or meeting up with friends, I’m always engaged and happy with the activity. But actually getting started really gets my anxious going and all those little things seem insurmountable. It is then I turn to food and either reading, TV, or internet while fooding.
The best I can do is try and push through it, and that’s what I did yesterday. I didn’t want to do anything related to my training yesterday, but knew I should. The thought of actually going to the gym was too much, so I just practiced inside my apartment for about 45 min. Not much, but better than giving up when I have really just started.
And even though I didn’t do a ton during those 45 min, I made a bit of progress. I worked on bunny hops and pumps (two tricks that I’m sure probably have different names elsewhere), which are in my reel. I’m having an issue where I put an extra step in the transition between the bunny hop and the leap that comes after, and I also am a bit slow on my kicks during the bunny hop. But the practice helped, and I’m hopeful at class tonight I’ll do a bit better! My pumps still need work as I’m having trouble with getting to kicks in a row…my foot really gets stuck. I think I was getting closer last night, so now I just have to try and keep that all from falling apart at class today.
I’ll also give a brief mention to my training schedule. I took a month from pre-season and added in on to off season, so that I could get through my runs. So I’m accelerating the run schedule a bit and condensing pre-season, but looking overall it should be okay. Other than extending off season and condensing the run schedule to go along with that, my plan is about the same as before I burned out.
I have about 7 weeks until my next feis and I’d really like to prove I’m ready to drop down. Let the hard work commence!
Last week I focused mostly on easing back into my dance regimen. This was a…mixed success. There were successes, but also many lack of successes:
- Monday: I survived 2 hours in the studio…75 min of drills class followed by 45 min of teams, which was also “just” drills. My legs and core were sore until Thursday morning. I ate 1577 calories and got 8273 steps, so overall a good day.
- Tuesday: No class, but I did my 20 min flexibility/mobility training. 1641 calories and 11,786 steps. Another pretty good day.
- Wednesday: No anything. I didn’t count calories at all but I did get 9914 steps.
- Thursday: Went to my main class at the studio. Class was 90 min long, and I almost didn’t make it through our work on the hornpipe. Didn’t count calories again and only 7741 steps.
- Friday: Nope. No training, no counting calories, only 6666 steps.
- Saturday: Totally intended to do my run, and totally lamed out on it. Didn’t count calories and didn’t even wear my Fitbit.
- Sunday: Rest day, right? Right. Rest day. I counted calories through dinner, when we went out for Mexican food. I think I finished with about 2100 for the day, which isn’t great but it could have been worse. I did get in my steps, total of 10,196.
But when life gives you lemons, you need to remember that you actually rather enjoy the taste of lemon, and wouldn’t these be delicious in -ade, pie, or chicken form with a generous side of vegetables, right after you finished training for your goal of being a champion dancer.
Another motivating factor was this MRI photo I saw today comparing an active person’s body composition with an inactive person’s, both in their 70’s. I was really struck by the fat between the muscles of the inactive person as well as the decreased bone density. In addition to all the goals my current planned training would achieve for me, I want to be terrorizing the retirement community when I get older, not be stuck in a chair. Being healthy in the future starts now.
I’m starting to get back in the swing of things.
Everything seemed hard in March. Work was hard, St. Patrick’s Day dancing consumed my days, and the situation I’ve been having with the guy who lives above me (“neighbor” is not a term he understands) culminated with me deciding to move to a different apartment. Getting out of that situation should help my mental state, less than 3 weeks to go!
And after all that – work deadlines, 18 shows in a week, trying not to burst into tears in the apartment manager’s office – I took a wonderful vacation to Japan and Taiwan. Last week was getting over jet lag, and this week is getting back into training.
I need to evaluate where I am at the moment after about a month off from my training schedule and make a new calendar. In the meantime, I’m still aiming to stay in my calorie goal, eat healthier, take at least 10,000 steps per day, and ease back into my daily routine of exercise.
My weight is slightly lower than when I quit paying attention back in March, which is fantastic. I’ve stuck with calories the last couple days, gotten at least close with steps, and went to dance last night.
And because jumping into 2 hours of drills and teams class (which was also just drills) is a fabulous idea when you’ve been out of the studio for a month, I’m waddling around like a penguin today and will not be attending my extra dance class tonight. I will, however, reevaluate my training plan and do some flexibility stuff.